Roller Coaster
Last night, hubby and I watched one of our favorite shows, Bravo’s Project Runway.
Ricky, the designer many thought should have been gone many shows ago, finally won a challenge!
At one point, he said that he “didn’t care what the judges thought,” but when they gave him credit and praise for the wonderful work he did, he began to cry.
Supermodel Heidi Klum said, “What’s up with you?”
An overwhelmed Ricky responded, “This is a roller coaster, every challenge, you don’t know where to go, if you suck or don’t suck…”
Famed fashion designer Michael Kors responded, “That never stops.”
And I think Michael is right. And it’s something that’s true for fashion and entertainment, or any field where one is constantly creating something out of nothing, something new…
When you’re always pushing to get to the top, you only see that you have so much more to go, you don’t know what the view is like from up there. And I think that’s what Ricky was feeling… he was in a totally different place, and he was taking in the vistas — a place where he was satisfied, where he had accomplished what he set out to do.
The problem is, for most artists, we don’t have a judge or mentor on the spot telling us what is good or bad, what needs work and what can stand on it’s own. Though it can be nerve racking, it’s feedback that helps an artist grow.
I picked a lonely road for myself… a lot of what I do happens well before anyone sees it, and then I have to trust that what I’ve done is good — trust it enough to send it out and hope someone else thinks it’s as good as I do, good enough to invest talent, time, and money into bringing it to life.
But maybe I need to think like Ricky did, and stop worrying. Just go forward with what I think is right… When I trust in what I’ve put on the page, others will trust enough to put it on stage…
My daily horoscope this morning summed it up best:
“Do you feel like you’re waiting around for the right person to give you permission to move up? Well, you can stop waiting. There is no right person. So just head on up and see what happens.”
Hold on to the handle bars with me, and let’s “Watch what happens!“
–Sue
1 comment January 25th, 2008
