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“Quantum Leap”

February 18th, 2009

I wrote about it last April, and yet, it seems I’m still holding on…

And though my stubborn nature (I think tenacity sounds better)… Though my tenacity serves me well, sometimes, I just have to let go.

I’m lucky to be the daughter of immigrant parents. (Though they may not appreciate the label, considering they’ve been here over 30 years.) I grew up in a house filled with other languages (English, Hebrew, and Spanish were spoken at home). I heard the music in language at a very young age.

I also grew up watching my parents work incredibly hard to make something out of nothing. (They’ve had many businesses, and done well for themselves for many years now.) I learned about having a strong work ethic and being strong enough to push things through.

What they didn’t teach me (and I’m not sure they know how to do this themselves) is how to be okay with the down times. And unfortunately, entertainment is full of those.

I learned how to take risks watching them — that’s how I ended up here in the first place. Maybe now, it’s time to take another leap to find my own freedom…

I do have a clue… I read it many years ago in a Playbill before a show. Unfortunately, I don’t even know her name, but I remember reading an interview with an actress who said she wasn’t much good at the down times either, until she moved to New York…

She said a roommate (her first in New York), taught her to ENJOY the down times… to read the books she’d been meaning to read and do the things she’d been meaning to do.

And I thought it was kinda cool what she was saying, but I didn’t really get it. Now, years later, I’m finally getting the wisdom in the simplicity of the sentiment.

The fear, and the worry I’ve been filling those times with don’t hasten action, they only push things away… and that’s no way to attract what I want and need.

Taking the leap!

–Sue

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